Thursday, November 29, 2012

In the clear?

Man, I feel like I've been through the ringer this past week.  The problem with having an immune system that programs itself to only get sick 2 or 3 times a year is that when I do get sick, I REALLY crash and burn.  And the problem with this happening while I'm still in school, as opposed to vacation is that I still need to try to do my job and live my day-to-day life through all of it.  Somehow, on vacation, I can manage to skate through illness without collateral damages... that seems to be tougher to do when school's still on.

This week has sort of seen me all over the board: Monday was the hyper, mile-a-minute chattering that always heralds the onset of a fever for me.  Tuesday, I didn't even leave my apartment.  Wednesday, I was emotional, sensitive, and picking fights I probably should have left alone, and today (following only 3 hours of sleep last night due to my cough), I was in a strange, whimsical, profound mood, but definitely sleep-deprived.

As I sit here writing this post, I am still coughing and wheezing.  I hope it eases up soon. One doesn't truly value health until they get sick... and this is, unfortunately, a cyclical truth:  Every time I recover from a bad virus, I am grateful for my health for a while... and then I forget; take health for granted and complain.

This time, I'm going to try to be consistently grateful for good health... and as part and parcel of that, I want to go out of my way to keep myself healthy, to view my good health as something I am responsible to care for and maintain.  I manage to figure out new pieces of what it means to be a responsible, independent adult every year, but I never manage to have all of the pieces in place at once. Life, one of these days, I'll figure you out, just you wait...


  1. and actually having a health care provider listen to wheezy lungs is a good idea...

    when you get all this figured out, let me know. I'd like to know too (home with back spasms today from too much heavy lifting in the barn)

    love from your mom

  2. Yeah. I'll see what I'm feeling like in the morning tomorrow. I may be making a trip to the clinic.